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i feel that it is impt to chronicle the last weekend that i
went through.
on sat(19.1) i woke up to find myself having a high fever
and a nasty backache.
i need not elaborate further how the rest of my sat
went as you guys could have predicted.

the last weekend, my church was also having a
spiritual emphasis sessions where a pastor was invited to
preach intensively on how God has healed many ppl
through him.
i went for the friday session and the pastor prayed for me
briefly.
i missed the sat session as i was feeling too sick.

On sunday,
i wasnt feeling too good either when i woke up.
so i thought to myself "sigh,cant go church again"
then my cell members buzzed me at about 11 to
ask me to go church and pray for healing.
they were willing to come my house and help
me over to church.
i agreed.
At the end of the service, my cell leader explained to
Ps Dennis(my district pastor) that i wasnt feeling well
and hoped that the guest pastor could do a prayer for me.
When Ps Dennis first prayed for me, i felt the OVERWHELMING
gush of God's anointing upon me.
i felt like i was on the verge of losing consciousness.
little did i knew,
that was the start of God's healing upon me.

i went home after i tabao-ed lunch,with my
cell leader escorting me home.
i slept a good 2 hours and when i woke up,
i felt rejuvenated, like i didnt fell sick previously?

God sometimes allow pain and suffering because "He loves
us just as we are, but loves us too much to let us remain
where we are", and we often dont listen to Him when He 
warns us of the danger, so He has to "stir up our nests"

All Glory to God.

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before i head to SGH for my follow up appt,
i would like to pen down a few thoughts.

okay,u can call me nuts.
but somehow,oddly, i love to visit the hospital.
reason being?
visiting the hospital gives me a timely reminder
to be THANKFUL.
be thankful that i can move.
be thankful that i can see.
be thankful that i'm not in tremendous pain,often
be thankful that i'm not drown in hefty
medical bills(wells,NOT that my appt are free mind you!)
be thankful that....................................

ha too many to list,actually.

ciaoz. God, bless me with a good medical report!AMEN.

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Its christmas week!
its Jesus' birthday.
I finally got myself water baptized on christmas day.
the old has gone and the new has come.

still reeling from the effects of the festive season.
However, as we get lost in the feasting and exchanging of
presents, we musn't forget the reason for the season-Jesus.

Just a sidenote.
i realise a lot of smart and rich people around me are
christians.
smart as in people who study in prestigious schools
like Raffles
Rich as in people who live in landed or condo.
one thing just dawned on me.
even the SMART and RICH people need God.
i mean they are already self-sufficient- having all the brains
and money in the world.
why would these people bother to turn to God and
sacrificing every sunday of the year to attend church.
not because they are bonkers.
but because all of us need God.

I rest my case.

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Pastor Joseph Prince's sermons are very empowering.
so it boils down to one thing.
condemnation kills.
God never meant to condemn us, AT ALL.
ever since Christ died on the cross, the work IS finished.
He has bore all our sins and iniquities.


God also didnt mean to let us fall sick.
The reason why we're falling sick is becos we FEEL
we dont deserve the healing.
becos we're guilty.
becos we thought that healing comes only by our
performance.
BUT THE THING IS,
we DONT HAVE to DO ANYTHING to deserve
the healing.
God meant well for us to be complete and whole.

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oh my gosh.
thankfully not many ppl come by this blog anymore.
i need to rant, LIKE NOW.

For safety's sake, i will not explicitly state certain terms

sometimes,i SERIOUSLLYYYY wonder why people
would believe in other R.
Why would ppl believe in something thats made out of nowhere?
wouldnt people want a genuine relationship with R?
it's GRACE that christmas existed for a reason.
GRACE means who Jesus is and what He has done
for us.
Grace need not be worked towards and is freely given.
am extremely thankful for it.

On the other hand, why would other R require ppl to DO
SOMETHING FOR THEM?
be it the burning offerings or anything for the sort.
the thing is,
people HAVE to DO SOMETHING to earn their respect?
which...............................is totally ridiculous isn't it?

& here i've unsaved friends who totally witnessed the
miraculous doings of what my great God has done........
cold hard facts right before their eyes.......
but still refusing to believe in it.
Christmas is all about Jesus, my friends.

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Before i hit the sacks,
i figured i should really blog about today.
Today started off just as any other normal days.
wake up and prep for school.
after my finance mtg,
i went to meet tong to go down to QQrice
to do on-site observations.

when we were there, we were like dubious characters
stationing ourselves outside the outlet and then
pranced on the customers who just finished their purchase.
thick-skinned of us indeed :)
got snubbed by many.
wells, not exactly surprised since singaporeans
are just too busy with their own lives.
well, not a very "PRODUCTIVE" session or so we thought
*shrugs*

then tong and i decided to go in to try the rice balls.
a lady sat down next to us and we were feeling quite
apprehensive about approaching her to "chat".
suddenly the lady was just about to set off and
she turned to me to excuse me so that she could
take a picture of the board that was next to me.
I immediately shot tong the "TALK TO HER TALK TO
HER" look, and tong spoke up.

we had a really really really nice conversation with
the lady.

God saved the best for the last :')
a productive session in disguise.

God,help me in my exams!

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OH MY GOSH.
IM SICK OF PUTTING PRESSURE UPON MYSELF.
Im sick and tired of wanting to do well.

"I've surrendered that to God. I'm not in a battle with what everybody else thinks anymore,"
Jeremy Lin

i need to get that quote SINK.INTO.ME

frankly speaking, 
all the drive and motivation of wanting to do well
is coming from peer pressure.
i thought through and asked myself what the sole purpose behind 
all these that I am doing.
it's all for fame and getting the acknowledgement
from people.

I'm DONE with all these shitty mindsets.
it's sheer stupidity, Jasmin Leng.

another mundane post

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Wow

blogger has a totally new user interface now.
hmm not really bothered to explore since i'm only doing
simple blogging.
oh wells.
so sch has officially started.
week 1 is over.
no more bumming around jasmin!
its high time to get cracking with your work.
you want your gpa 3 right! *wink wink*
hmm okay a lot of random thoughts running through my
mind now.

i'll attempt to rant it all out coherently.
today i took my sermon using my S3 note app.
i decided to do sermon taking today cos i
could feel myself not concentrating during worship already
blame it on whatsapp.
i saw all my ftb peeps mugging and what did i do ystd?
RETAIL THERAPY -.-
it was dressabelle's private event and lewei
gladly invited me with her.
she could only bring one friend along as the shop space
was pretty small.
got 2 extremely worthy buys! :)
thank God!
okay back to my sermon note taking.
today's sermon was preached by Ps Jean on the topic
of Worship.
in a nutshell, We worship God for who He is and
praise Him for the blessings He has given us.
We can worship Him everywhere and anytime because
He is simply omnipresence.
attempted to text jinfay the entire sermon but failed.
so i whatsapp-ed her bro instead.
she'll be back on 2September. time flies!
one more week left.

my sister is currently watching the national day rally
CHONG HUI XIAN was mentioned in the rally earlier on!
NGEE ANN ROCKS MAN!
and now she is doing an exchange at an university
at sweden.
she just set an ideal role model to all ITE students.
I hope this will help to get them motivated.
personally, i really felt that what lacks in them is
just sheer motivation.

my 3 months summer holiday was spent v fruitfully.
FTB and starring.
OH how i love SMU :)
i SMU(smoo) you :)

Gratitude

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Lord,
I really can't thank you enough.
despite how great the urge to nua, I know very clearly
that i need to start going out of my comfort zone.

In times of need, you provided.
You're indeed my Jehovah Jireh Lord.

Thank God for Renee! :)

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I've a paper at 5pm and

its pouring heavily outside my house now.

somehow, i feel that there's something

very comforting about rain.

like it helps to relieve the heavy heart within me.

ha must be cos of the exams! screw exams! :{>

i hope it stops when i hafta step out of my house.

poly has started their new academic year once again

and i cant never emphasize that......

i really miss that 3 years man.

having said that, becos every poly graduate

hoping to wear the extra accessory aka mortar,

its sad to see that people mugging their heads off

during their free-time or lunch breaks.

not to say that i wasn't like one of them once.

even if i could turn back the clock back to 4 years ago,

i would still have done the same thing.

though dubbed as the paper chase in singapore,

the prestige and reputation that is attached along

with it, is just too tempting.

though i clearly know when all of us start going

out to the working world, after the first job, grades

actually dont really matter.

with the rain pouring so heavily now,

comes the nostalgic-ness.

SIGHHHHHHHHHH.

but i believe in something heavenly now.

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*GASP*

Time flies man.

I'm almost done with my first year.

actually...

i cant wait to get myself out of smu.

though i know working life is probably

gna get much dreadful than what i

am currently experiencing now.

the fact that im completely burnt out

just goes to show that too much was put

in when i was in poly.

honestly, i missed my poly life so damn much.

seriously man.

uni life is just all about the mugging

no wonder smu is renowed for its smugging culture.

oh wells, for now, at least the thing i could look

forward to is 23 april 2012.

liberation, i've been wanting you since forever.

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I think all the self-imposed stress is starting

to make me feel that I'm losing myself.

I need to start to learn how to chill.

*BREATHES IN BREATHES OUT*

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This morning I just went to school for my

stats mid term

& I FINISHED LIKEABOSS (Y)

ha no la. it's God's grace that I did the paper

LIKEABOSS :)

then after the stats test, i met up with

my secondary sch girls.

Totally a blast.

had so much fun with them

we playnation-ed together for the entire

sat afternoon for $15 with free flow of drinks.

AINT IT ROCK?!

cool yeah?

alrighty, back to assignments *POUTS*

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Omg school's been so busy that I

think I'm gna die from it anytime soon.

I.AM.NOT.KIDDING.

Even the most hectic semester of my poly

wasn't like that!

STAY CHILLED JASMIN.

it's only the FIRST semester.

you're not even done with the first year.

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Wow. im so surprised that vivien still visit this space of mine

(YES VIVIEN I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS)

I can't believe I hadn't touched this space of mine for close to a year.

November 2010,I was just about3 months into

my internship.

oh how i missed those days.

i feel that humans are pretty contradictory beings.

when you're working, you feel like studying.

when you're studying, you feel like working.

a lot of events unfolded in the course of past 9 months.

the most significant event being my entry to SMU.

my journey in getting a place in uni,was an arduous one

and the only earthly being who rahrah-ed me through

was kar voon.

from the crafting of appeals to the preparation of interviews.

now i know who else to go to, IF i have to prepare for interviews.

ITS NONE OTHER THAN VIVIEN.

she spotted on my NUS interview qns!!!! (HAHA!)

& deep down in my heart, i knew that the one who gave me

THE PLACE in smu, was God.

don't ask me why.

if not for Him, I would be nothing, really.

Sch started on 15 Aug.

It's been a hectic 7 weeks.

no joke. Probably, hectic is an understatement.

Uni is a no joke place.

putting hard work is imperative.

the whole intensive mugging culture just made me

very sian to the max.

after all, you can't blame me.

I had spent the past 14 years of my life in education

& I am no super woman to be able to sustain the

stamina.

well, hopefully it will sustain me for 4 more

years and I believe God will bring me through,

once again, like how He did for my poly studies.

The past one week was uber draining.

mid terms&presentations&deadlines&assignments.

I.NEED.A.BREATHER.

Thank God for the strength & the divine wisdom.

hmms, next week is my recess week.

Thank God for it. cause i will have extra time to concentrate

on my projects and study my stats(*whinesBIGTIME*)

the next 3 years, God, its all Yours.

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I woke up the next day feeling so encouraged yet so desperate to seek God. I sat down with my bible and my diary and edwj and I was asking God to show me what He wanted to show me as I really wanted to know.
I was showed a departmental store in a shopping centre. The sales promoter was trying to sell her product to the customers. In this job, she will meet 3 different kinds of people. The first kind of people just shove her aside when she tries to promote the product to them. The second kind of people stop to listen, but they ask for many things: free samples, demonstrations etc. The Last kind of people just buy according to what you tell them.
In our christian life, God is the departmental store and we are His promoters to promote His love, to tell people about His love. We meet people who totally reject us when we tried to share God’s love to them. We meet people who stop to listen to us, but they want testimonies and then consider if they want to believe in God. The last kind of people simply just buy what we say and accept Christ.
Even though we might face persecutions in future, the people will soon come to realise that the product is good and everasting, and that is God’s everlasting love:)

I love reading fellow sisters' blogs because

sometimes it saves me the trouble of translating

my thoughts to words.

As christmas approaches, I'm excited.

Lets see who i can successfully invite this year.

God says

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You say: It’s impossible
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: I’m too tired
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: Nobody really loves me
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 13:34)
You say: I can’t go on
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalms.91:15)
You say: I can’t figure things out
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: I can’t do it
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: I’m not able
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: It’s not worth it
God says: It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)
You say: I can’t forgive myself
God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: I can’t manage
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: I’m afraid
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: I’m always worried and frustrated
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: I don’t have enough faith
God says: I’ve given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)
You say: I’m not smart enough
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: I feel all alone
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

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You: do you know about grace?
Stranger: yeah
Stranger: she’s this chick down the road
Stranger: and she serves me coffee
You: not that grace
You: for example your wife / fiance caught you having sex with other woman
You: she went to the kitchen
You: and prepare a food for you and your chick
Stranger: i’d say
Stranger: dang
Stranger: that’s beautiful
You: that’s grace. a gift that you do not deserve
Stranger: eh.
You: got it?
Stranger: yeah.
You: great
Stranger: i can be graceful though.
You: now. because of sin
You: we are all destined to go to HELL, or HADES, etc…
You: ETERNAL DAMNATION!
You: 1000000000x10000 degree celcius
Stranger: b-b-b-but
You: God gives grace
You: gives grace to those who have faith in Him
You: He alone can save us
You: we cannot save ourselves
Stranger: i gotta meet this nigga.
You: do you want to?
You: there’s only one way
Stranger: do i have to kill myself?
Stranger: that’s a sin.
You: don’t
You: someone already died to take your place
You: God came to this world to seek & save what was lost

I know i may offend some of you but i still insist to
blog about it.

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oh my tian~
the haze is really terrible.
causing me to have dry throat.
i wanna die alr ~

anyways,
maybe i will be going to audit dept soon.
heard tat audit dept is starting to get
quite busy recently.
hmms, im excited and helpless(?) at the same
time.
cos audit to me sounds so theory in sch,
i wonder what's the real audit field work
like man.

wells,tats it for now.

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Disappointment.
oh no! this word is an understatement.